Wishful Thinking.

Lately I've been wishing for one thing.

Peace of mind.

Reason for why I do not have it at this particular period of time is a confluence of many rather haunting events occuring simultaneosly in my already dreadful life. Quite frankly I do not want to talk about them just yet.

What I wanted to know is?

If there is something eating up your insides, like really devouring your head and thoughts and time. Totally taking over your being.

Is there any way I can keep it off my mind temporarily ?
I dont want it to be gone for ever, that's not what I want.

Sometimes when I try to sleep at night and my head is exploding with thoughts and memories and ideas and my heart is thumping like its gonna stop.

That would qualify as a time when I want to get my mind off them things. Just so I can get some goddamn shut eye.

Reality.

Some days you are the toaster and in some days, you are toast.

Would You.

Would you hold me, If I say good bye,

Would you look at me, If I close my eyes,

Would you touch my face, If I speak the truth,

Would you say all that I have to say, If I can't break the silence,

Would you see me, If I break down all the walls,

Would you whisper to me, If I start losing my sanity,

Would you hum a soft tune, If I stop breathing,

Would you be my angel, If I kneel to pray,

Would you save a seat for me, If I don't even mind standing,

Would you lead my way, If I forget where I am headed,

Would you hold me together, If I start to fall apart,

Would you kiss my eyes, If I let my eyes go adrift,

Would you give me strength, If I can't hold my head up,

Would you make me laugh, If I try my best not to,

Would you be all giggles, If I tickle your ears,

Would you let me caress your hair, If I need to feel my hands again,

Would you listen to my heart beating, If I can’t stand the distance anymore,

Would you let me sleep, If I need to wake up,

Would you shiver lightly, If I blow on your eyes,

Would you pull me back, If I am not really here,

Would you say nice to have had known you, If I say nice to have had known you.