Screaming Silence.

I wanna be that person,
Dont know when I'll explode,
The Flood gates straining,
The years it held,
The years it bled,
Fighting the urge to degrade.

I wanna be that person,
Everytime I hear I dive in,
Everytime I see I come alive,
Wake up from sleep walking,
Didnt even know I could till that moment,
The sudden truth came so slow.

I wanna be that person,
My eyes wont stop searching,
Have to stop looking behind,
Just that I cant, thats where my life is frozen,
Come back or I'll wash away,
Hold me together make the pain stop,
Take my hand walk me through this.

I wanna be that person,
Never found the strength,
The barricade and facade helps the face,
What lies beneath, naked and bruised,
Time has hardened the face,
Underneath its still black and blue,
When they meet I know who'll take over.

I wanna be that person,
Strong enough to break through,
The walls of my fear,
Face the music, enjoy it, unafraid,
Find you to find me again,
Stop the journey, reach the end,
Just to start one again with you.

I wanna be that person,
Not full of pain,
Painting the world for you,
To never sleep again,
Open myself, let it all flow,
Dissolve in you.

I wanna be that person,
Fill you in my arms,
Just to say I missed you like hell,
I wanna be that person,
Not a goddamn version,
I just wanna be.